Okay, everyone knows these stories of the QB who was pushed through High School because he was the star Quarterback and Captain of the team. Dozens movies have been made about it and dozens more news stories have been written about it. Without him the team couldn't/wouldn't win. So, to the detriment of said Athlete he graduates high school gets a college football scholarship to find out he is no longer the star and to top it off he's also illiterate.
Now, instead of graduating college he is working off the books at his uncle's car wash because he can't fill out the McDonald's application on his own.
Sometimes I feel like this QB. The only difference is I don't play football, I can read, nearly have a BS, and I'm girl with no desire to play football. Anyway, I digress. As I was saying sometimes I feel like this football player. I mostly feel like this because to some degree I have been lucky. I bubbled in enough correct answers on my exams to get the next promotion. For the most part my work evaluation are written well and I am rewarded by official document for the world to see. What it comes down to is I look DAMN fine on paper but I don't think I necessarily deserve it. Does this make any sense at all?
In my mind I have been pushed through the cracks just like the star QB. I go to work feeling unqualified and undeserving. May be I should, may be I shouldn't. May be it's just when I look around I feel like I'm the last one to get it. I'm not sure where I'm going now and this is getting way to serious...I am going to stop here for you ponder while I go find some happy.
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